OK so now I need to write. I really should be working on my novel and I want to but... no scratch that, I don't want to because if I wanted to that's what I would be doing. Its just one of those days where I want to write, I really do, just not anything to do with any of the novels I'm working on. So this is generally what I do when that happens...

OK so basically I've been going insane lately, literally. I mean I'm just waiting for that creepy van to pull up to my house and take me away to some padded room. I'm not a psycho, that would have been simpler. Its just.... damn I don't know how to explain it.
Ever go to sleep at night (yea...) and there's this annoying mosquito in the room and there's this faint zzzzzz until it swoops down near your ear and you get that zzzzzzZZZZZ? OK so ever have that happen to you when you're a second from falling asleep? You know those 30 seconds when you're between real life and dream land and your imagination goes wild... Do you know what that zzzzz thing can do to you at that precise moment?! So that's what happened to me last night, of course I was startled because that damn noise was totally amplified due to my almost-asleep state and I jumped up staring wide-eyed around me at the dark room. First thing that comes to mind is "just part of a dream, go back to sleep" - so I do!
Then it happens again only I hear the buzzing a little fainter but from a direction that can only be described as RIGHT UNDER MY PILLOW. This time I get up, turn on the lights and search the bed, sheets, under the pillow...you name it. Guess what I find, yea that's right, absolutely nothing.
OK so now I'm really loosing it but I figure I'll just ignore it because I need to sleep so I put my head back on the pillow and listen intently, nothing, perfect and very appreciated silence. Close my eyes, still nothing. At the same moment I think good, finally and relax my body I hear it again, zzzzz. Ignore it, JUST ignore it, and I tried, I really tried until it got louder and louder and in a second it got so loud I was hearing it from inside my ear. Yea so thats when I sat up and just stayed like that, sitting on my bed, in the dark, staring at nothing and looking like a total psycho. And the only thing that went through my head was please I'm not going insane. Maybe I am...